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Wreckless Life

08.30.04 (11:11 pm) [edit]

Well, I can't sleep tonight so I thought I'd get up, have a cookie or two, and do a little blogging. I haven't actually blogged in so so long. So anyways...the VMAs were on last night and they totally sucked. NO good bands or singers whatsoever...except for Outkast, but that was it I do believe, and Jet had a short performance, I like Jet. I didn't watch much of it though for fear of vomitting because of how horrible the music industry has become. These days, anyone could be the number one musical person/band in the country, you don't even have to have talent whatsoever, I guess you just have to be at the right place at the right time, or be lucky. Kind of the same thing I guess. I miss the glory days on Guns n' Roses so much. Not that I really remember them, but I can only imagine or dream that a band, a person that actually deserved to be the biggest, baddest, number one band in the world actually was. It would be a fantasy world for me. The only one decently talented band/singer nowadays would be The White Stripes/Jack White. Brilliancy personified. I forget about them occasionally because it's been a while since they released a single, but they so rock! I really like the Red Hot Chili Peppers, too, though I think they're running out of new funk/rock song ideas. I've been a fan since they had their first hit album "Blood Sugar Sex Magik" in the early nineties, I couldn't have been over seven, but even then I could pick up on Anthony Kiedis' talent and coolness. He is still a cool man, a sexy man, too. He's gotta be like forty atleast now, maybe late thirties. Men are starting to look sexier at older ages now, mainly celebrities, I guess because they're really good-looking anyways. Oh, Axl! What did you do to your gorgeous face and hair? It hurts, why? I'll never understand. Perfection has gotta stop somewhere, i.e. a man, a caucasion male in his forties getting braids, hair extensions that is. Is he nuts? Does he not want a female in his life, or one that likes him for the right reasons anyway? I don't know, his style factor these days is quite disappointing, too. You can almost tell he's been in another world for the past decade and counting. Moving on though, and I still love Axl, just had to get that off my chest. Usher needs to get out of the spotlight, as does Eminem. Two talentless lowlifes trying to be cool. But that's what about 85% of the world is made up of so no wonder they're so popular. Man, I'm on a critisism role tonight, and I love it!! I think I want to be a music critic or something, how great would I be at that? Awesome!! Possibly for a primarily rock magazine, that is my main are of expertise. If I was writing for something else I would just ramble on about how much so and so band sucks because they don't rock, literally. And that would just piss sadasses off and we don't want that do we? I don't know why I judge others based on their musical preferences, I can't help it. To me, what you listen to says more about you than almost anything, I guess because I've found a band that "speaks" to me. One that gets me through life, one that has moved me in ways that no human being could do. I can't explain it. If you've found your musical soulmate, you know what I'm talking about hopefully.

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I Smoke My Cigerette With Style

08.18.04 (9:24 pm) [edit]

Well today was pretty much just another day at school I guess. I went jogging tonight but I got so hot I had to call my Mom to come pick me up. I dropped my pre-calculus class so now I have principles of business first period. I like it so far because it’s really easy and everything but I don’t really have anyone to talk to in there. There’s a few guys that have caught my interest or better yet eye at school, just ones I’ve seen in the hall, never spoken to though. There’s this one guy who has the cutest face and I just can’t help but want to look at him all the time though I do contain myself, but he dresses absolutely gross, I guess he’s what people in our school would consider skanky, but I think it’s just because of the way he dresses. If he got some new outfits he would be gorgeous. He seems shy and quiet and doesn’t really talk to many people, and I think that’s another reason why I like him. I don’t even know his name and we’ll probably never even talk because I sit nowhere near him in study hall and I never see him outside of class. And there’s this other guy that I have actually talked to like one time at my friend’s birthday party at this pizza place. He’s semi-cute but he has a great sense of humor which is the biggest attraction factor for me in a guy. I’ve noticed him noticing me when I walk by him and his little group of friends in the hall, I think I saw him kind of like point me out even one time, and say kind of low "her". I could tell he didn’t think I saw or heard him, but I don’t even know his name, and I can’t bring myself to say hi to him. I don’t think he’s shy either so damnit I wish he would say something to me. Or maybe I could accidentally like bump into him in the hall and that would make us laugh and maybe something could come out of that. I don’t know, I’m nuts. I think since I’m over Mr. Ex I just have a lot of free time and kind of unfortunately that goes to thinking about wishing I had a boyfriend, and picking out potential suitors that I’ll probably never speak to. Though I do like, actually love being single I must admit, sometimes I just wish I knew what it was like to be in a long-term committed relationship, I might hate it, who knows. I just wish I knew though. Anyways, I have like the easiest classes in the world. The only "hard" class I’m taking is English. The rest are electives a.k.a. sleeping/making fun of people with your insensitive guy friends class. Oh! Guns n’ Roses A2Z was on vh1 last night and oh snap that man is so sexy!! No, not slash...or Duff...oh you know. OK, well I think I’m mozying off to bed now.

Peace Out ~Shana~

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Dancing Days

08.06.04 (9:25 pm) [edit]

Hey HEy Hey...

Well my first day back to school was today, and it was sooooo great. I had so much fun and I can tell this year is totally gonna rock!!! Um..let's see, I saw my ex-bf for the first time since we got outta school, the one who made me so sickingly depressed, uh he's gone so downhill in the looks department, particularly the hair, it's so great, I know he wants to talk to me so badly but he's too scared...I love it! Oh tomorrow night I think me and some friends are going to go see Napolean Dynamite, I don't know anyone that's seen it but it looks pretty damn hilarious, I re-inacted each scene from the previews for all of my friends today at school, no wonder they hang out with me. Anyways, I'm going to mozy off and go eat something and take Mr. pills b/c I'm so hungry.

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Should I Stay Or Should I Go

08.05.04 (11:19 am) [edit]

Ok, well I start back to school tomorrow and I'm definately having mixed emotions about it. It's my last year, of high school anyways, thank god, so I'm kind of hoping it'll go really well. I've never worried about how a school year is gonna be but after everything that happened last year I can't help but ponder the good and/or bad possibilities. But, according to my therapist, there's no way it could be even remotely bad as last year was, I just have to learn to relax andjust let things happen as they happen and don't worry about the past or future. But it's alot harder than it sounds, really it is, I've spent six months trying to learn how to do that, I've gotten alot better at it, but I still have my fall backs. But anyways, I'm going to have my senior pictures remade in about 2 hours, I'm also kind of dreading that just because the first ones turned out so horrindous. Damnit, I've gotta stop being such a fucking pessimist, ok I'm going to stop now. Ok on a lighter note, I got like 50 new outfits to wear to school this year, which is an amazing record for me, I've just been a really good budgeter this year, eh summer actually, but anyways, that sends some excitement through me. Do clothes excite anyone else I wonder, they always have me, I don't know why, even when I was a kid. I'm so hungry right now, I just got up like less than two hours ago, I think I may wait and have a McDonald's hot n spicy McChicken, which I totally love, and if you haven't ever had one you're nuts, it's totally the best McDonald's menu item, the only one I'll eat actually. Well, I guess I'm going to mozy off here and finish getting ready for those pics.

Peace Out Everyone ~SHana~

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