Why Don't You Just...Fuck Off!
Wednesday was a busy day for me...or not so much I was busy...just a lot happened, lots of emotions. I went to that guy Jonathon's house for a little bit to hang out and from the vibes I get he really likes me and stuff...and he's all like "call me"..."i really wish I could see you more"..."what are you doing Saturday"...etc. That shit...so I think cool....I like him too, honestly...but let's see, that was Wednesday and it is now Saturday and I still haven't heard from him. What a load of bullshit...I don't understand it...why say those things then not follow through. I know his whole life is pretty much him being wasted, but that's not excuse.
And then my Ex....the Ex...the one and only guy I've ever loved contacts me telling me he's going to be in town for the holiday week/weekend and wants to hang out. Pretty much begs me to come over and see him....seriously...begs...so I finally agree to go over there since I haven't seen him in a while and when I get there....I kid you not, I had been there 5 minutes...he says "Well..I'm going to bed"....What the helllllllll....Do I set myself up for this or what? I don't understand....So basically I just leave and send him a text message telling him to never contact me again...I end up feeling bad for being so extreme with that and sent him another 2 days later. So we're on good terms again...I'm just staying away from him though. I'm sick of being let down, by guys.
And I mean...I think I put out a pretty classy vibe, but for some reason guys are so used to other girls being so easy and shit....they just try to treat me like they treat them and it doesn't fly with me. I love sex as much as the next person but when I've talked to you twice...come on....what's happened with people today?
I'm just really confused lately...do quality people exist...who know how to treat ladies...or even people....I do not know. I rock...I know this....I'm not settling for bullshit because I only hope there's better out there.
Anyway...I guess I'll stay away from the men for a while...it's for the best.
Short n Sweet
I wanna be happy!!!
Little Boobies
Everything is just so ridiculous nowadays....I'm not going to name specifics, but just a lot pisses me off about society and people today. I'm sick of it frankly...I hate posting bitchy/depressing blogs but hey, that's honestly the only time I feel like blogging. I wish people didn't lie....I lie...I wish I didn't, though. I said I hate lying though...didn't say I didn't do it...just hate when I do. I wish people wouldn't say things they didn't mean. I don't do that, I'm positive. That's lying too...just in a different sense. I lie, as in..."I'm busy today"...though I'm not...but I don't say stuff I do not mean to get peoples' hopes up or such, that's ridiculous. I just hate insincerity, mostly. I'm not directing this at anyone inparticularly to clear that up, just overall...it just happens way too much, to me anyway.
So how was everyone's weekend?...mine went pretty well. Johnny Cash movie...loved it, everyone's gotta see it. Something about that Jauquin Phoenix guy is sorta sexy, but not too sexy, I've seen sexier anyway. I sorta wanna go see it again...if you wanna join me, let me know.
