i need naps
06.08.06 (3:36 pm) [edit]
my head hurts. i hate you.
for the love of money.
06.08.06 (3:31 pm) [edit]
so i bought 2 books yesterday. "In Cold Blood" by Truman Capote which i'm pretty excited about reading because for starters, it falls into my favorite book genre...that being true crime. and of course the recent hype about the movie based upon it, which i have yet to see because i'd rather read the book first. Then i bought another book...it just looked cute. ha...it's "metal_floss presents: INSTANT KNOWLEDGE. Just Add Conversation" i love instant knowledge so i thought what the hell. and plus, it's pretty interesting and the way it's written is pretty witty so i like it. so today. work: fucking sucked! i'm a waitress by the way. a really good one at that...i mean i give ridiculously amazing service. i got stiffed 3 motherfucking times. no joke. some people should just be pooped on. anyway. that's all.
i really can't take much more of this
06.07.06 (3:30 pm) [edit]
i miss him so much it's just killing me. i can't take it. i cry so much even when i try not to think about him. i never knew things would turn out this way. i thought we would last so much longer. that's why i let myself become attached. that's why i let him take my virginity. i called him this afternoon promising myself i wouldn't bring anything up about the relationship, and i didn't. i was proud. but i still really didn't get to talk to him like i wanted to. i wish i could make him re-fall in love with me. i can't sleep at night. this has never happened to me. it hurts more than anything. i just want us to be us again. i wish i hadn't drank so much so often. that hurt the relationship a lot. but i can't blame myself completely. god i love him. why does one have to go through so much pain? i would do anything for this guy, he really is amazing and different, i swear. he's just an amazing & different guy who has moved on apparently.
