question...
11.18.08 (1:07 am) [edit]
ah, how do you make decent friends in a small town? i don't think i have any.
louis ck is funny
11.12.08 (7:38 pm) [edit]
is it l-o-v-e?
11.09.08 (7:37 pm) [edit]
i'm really gonna miss you already. and i'm sorry i'm manic, but glad you somehow don't mind. i had too much fun this weekend. really i did. thursday night...us going to the tavern then your house. you had lost weight and looked so cute when i showed up at your house pre-tavern. the next day, friday, was the best by far. going to cracker barrel. laughing my ass off at you (and me:) the entire day the getting off from work and us just tackling one another until it became impossible to breathe from laughter or the fact that i was just out of breath or both. seeing the oscar meyer weiner truck and making a point to stop and get a picture by it. gosh, i can't wait til next time.
girly guy stuff.
11.02.08 (10:12 pm) [edit]
alright, so i absolutely take things for granted sometimes. i miss my dearest michael like crazy and have to refrain as hard as possible from showing that at all to him, or others for that matter. i never thought those words would come out of my mouth seeing as i spent majority of the summer and part of fall trying to escape his clingy tendencies. i've actually made the statement to my mom and confidant "i almost wish him and his ex would get back together to get him off me for a while." i completely retract that statement. he told me he was coming down home this coming weekend from school and staying until sunday night i'm guessing. ahh, it can't get here soon enough. i miss my best friend. i miss someone laughing with me hysterically that has the same, identical sense of humor as i do. i want to say i miss my drinking buddy, but i've stopped all of that as stated in 2 blogs previous to this. the problem with this thing is...i'm not sexually attracted to this person. i'm just not. i do find him at times physically very attractive, but i swear it's so hard for me to find him sexually attractive. by that i mean, i really cannot get turned on, for lack of a better phrase, by him. he tries to kiss me and all i'm thinking is ..."please let's get this over with. oh, and really don't try to take it further than this." weird i know. i dunno what's up with that. maybe because i've always been into very thin guys and he's just average-ish. or he's not as masculine. i'm not sure.
