Adult-Like

Today is my day off, I'm really happy about that...I don't wanna do anything at all today...my Mom brought to my attention yesterday that up until about 6 months ago, I had the life of a dog.  Haha.  It's true...I miss those days, I wasn't expected to do anything except clean my room on certain occasions.  I spent the rest of my time daydreaming, laying around...watching tv...movies...listening to music...etc.  Those were truly the days.  I feel all adult-like now though, it's weird, because as a person I haven't changed that much since back then...but I lead a completely different life, not by choice ofcourse.  I suppose everyone has to have an idea of what I'm talking about though, so I'll stop babbling about that.  Also, there's this certain guy I can't get off my mind, he's been embedded there for a good 10 years too...since elementary school.  I know that sounds insane, but apparently he's had the same situation from what he's told me.  Anyway...we talked last week and hung out together for the first times in almost two years, and I realized he's the coolest person I know.  I miss him and I really wish I could not think about him because I know numerous other girls feel the same as me, maybe not for as extended of a time period, but the feelings are there.  I hate liking someone so wanted...I guess that's a sign though of what a great person he is...b/c there's gotta be a reason he's so wanted...it makes it more exciting that way too.  I don't want any kinda relationship with him, I just wish I could stop thinking about him. I'm going to really focus my life on myself this week, self-therapute, if you will.  I need to do that desperately, because life's hard for everyone, but most don't take time to work things out, I'm going to do that this week, before school starts, so I can start college on a good, brand-new foot. Yay!